Step Into the Sun

And these last three years, I know they've been hard. 

But now it's time to step out of the desert and into the sun.

While I was doing some work from home, I was listening to an old band I was really into in college, The Format. One of my favorite songs came on, and it brought me back to when I was first diagnosed. Not that it spoke to me about my diagnosis at the time, but on a side note, I find myself defining my memories by whether I was sick or not. Like, when I look at an old picture and I think, "Oh I remember that day, I felt like crap but I forced myself to go out." Or "Wow, I remember how healthy and stress-free I was that day." The song just brought me back to those scary and confusing first few months.

Anyway, this song "On Your Porch" came on and these lines spoke to me, about how really the last four years have been so difficult with this disease. But now I am feeling so healthy and so happy that it's my time to step into the sun.

I went for a short run yesterday for the first time in over four years. I was so happy I could have cried.